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ZUISHIRENJIANLIUBUZHU,NIANHUAFANGFOJIASUDU。SHIGUANGSHIGUANGTABUNENGMANXIEBA,WOMENDEZIJIBAJIAOBUMANXIALAI。
MANSHIANQUAN。
XINGLUYAOMAN。NINGTINGSANFENBUQIANGYIMIAO。SIJIYIJIAOYOU,QINRENLIANGXINGLEI。
SHUOHUAYAOMAN。BINGCONGKOURU,HUOCONGKOUCHU。YUYANSHIBIAODAHESHEJIAODEGONGJU,RUGUOZHEIGEGONGJUSHANGHAIDAORENLE,NEIYIDINGSHIYONGCUODIFANG、SHICUOJINGERLE。
CHUSHIYAOMAN。JIGONGJINLI、YUSUBUDA。NIBUZHIDAONAYITIAOJIEJINGXIAMIANYOUKENG,JIUXIANGNIBUZHIDAONAYIDUOYUNHUIXIAYU。SHISHANGBENWUJIEJING,ZOUDERENDUOLE,ZONGYOURENYAODIAOKENG。《XINYUE》SHUO,“NIMENYAOJINZHAIMEN,YINWEIYINDAOMIEWANGNEIMENSHIKUANDE,LUSHIDADE,JINQUDERENYEDUO。YINDAOYONGSHENG,NEIMENSHIZHAIDE,LUSHIXIAODE,ZHAOZHEDERENYESHAO。”
MANSHIJIANKANG。
YINSHIYAOMAN。CHIFANFANGYE,ZOULUFANGDIE。YIRISANCAN,XIJIAOMANYAN,YOULIYUXIAOHUA、YOULIYUMOYA、YOULIYUZHANGCHUMEIMEIDEPINGGUOJI。HULUNTUNZAO、DAKUAIDUOYI,BUSHITANGLE、LIANGLE,JIUSHICHENGLE、XIAOHUABULIANGLE。CHIMANYIDIAN,DENGYIXIAZIJIWEIDEFANYINGSUDU。
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MANSHIZHILIANG。
DUSHUYAOMAN。HAODEJUZIYAOJIXIALAI,HAODEGUANDIANYAOCHIDETOU,HAODETIHUIYAOXIECHULAI。DUGUODESHUBUSHIZIJIDE,JIDEZHU、SHUODECHU、YONGDELAI,CAISHIYUZUOZHEGEKONGYONGBAO、CHUANYUEDUIHUA、XINLINGPENGZHUANG,CAINENGKEJINGUZI、RONGJINQIZHI、XIEJINJIYIN。
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MANSHIYOUYA。
CHUSHOUYAOMAN。YUSHIBUHUANG,LAISHIBUPA,XIANZUOHAODIAOCHAYANJIU、NONGQINGLAILONGQUMAI。HAIMEIGAOQINGZHUANGKUANG,YIDUNCAOZUOMENGRUHU,ZUIHOUXIANGGEERBAIWU。
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MANSHIXIANGSHOU。
WOMENCHANGCHANGZHEJIGANLU,ERHULVELEYANTUDEFENGJING。JIEGUOGURANZHONGYAO,GUOCHENGYESHIYIZHONGXIANGSHOU。ZHUBAJIECHIRENCANGUO,CHANGBUCHUSUANTIANKULA;LIULAOLAONIUYIN,PINBUCHUNONGYANCHUNXIANG。BIEGANLU,YAOGANSHOULU。
KESHI,RENSHENGKUDUAN,BULVCONGCONG。YITIANHENBUNENGBAICHENG48XIAOSHI,ZUOSHIHENBUNENGERBEISU,YISHENHENBUNENGCAIWEISANJIE。NIRANGWOZENMEMAN、PINGSHENMEMAN?
ZHUZHANGMANGXIEQINGSHENGMA,SHEIPA,YISUOYANYURENPINGSHENG。
MANXUYAOZAO。QIDEZAOCAIYOUSHIJIANMANMANZOU,NEIXIEFENGFENGHUOHUO、FENGCHIDIANCHEDE,DOUSHIYINWEILAICHUANGWANQILEJIFENZHONG。TIQIANZHUNBEICAINENGYIYUZHONGDE,NEIXIEKOUBUZEYAN、CIBUDAYIDE,DOUSHIMAIKEFENGDAOLEGENQIANCAIQUZUZHIYUYANDE。QIBUZAOCAINENGBAWOJIYU,NEIXIEZHAOJIEJING、ZOUXIELUDE,DOUSHIJIDIANBUZU、TIAOJIANBUGOU、XIANBINGDIAOXIALAILEHAIMEIYOUZHUNBEIHAODE。
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MANXUYAOJIANCHI。BUPAMANJIUPAZHAN。MAILEYISHENZHUANGBEI、LILEJIGEflag、FALEJIGEPENGYOUQUAN,RANHOUSANFENZHONGREDU、BANTUERFEI,ZHINENGZUODENGFEIROUDALIAN、TIZHONGFANDAN。JISHUICHENGYUAN、JITUCHENGSHAN。JIANCHIXIAQULEJIUSHISHENHUA,JIANCHIBUXIAQUJIUSHIXIAOHUA。
MANXUYAOJUJIAO。XIANGYAOSHISHIJIANGUBIDINGYISHIWUCHENG。ZAIZHEIGESHIJIESHANG,NIBUNENGSHENMEDOUYAO,NIBATAMENDOUWANGNAERFANG?YAOGUOLV,NAXIESHUKEYIYIMUSHIXING、QIANCHANGZHEZHI,NAXIESHUBIXUXIXIPINDU、FANFUTUIQIAO。YAOSIBIAN,NAXIESHIKEYIFANGFANGZAISHUO、NAXIESHIKEYITUOFUBIEREN、NAXIESHIKEYIYINGFUYIXIA,NAXIESHIBIXUQINLIQINWEI、NAXIESHIBIXUJINGGENGXIZUO。YAORENQING,NAXIERENKEYIDIANZANZHIJIAOSHENZHIJINGERYUANZHI,NAXIERENSHIYAOYIXINXIANGJIAO、ZHONGSHENZHENXI。
CONGQIANSHUXINMAN、CHEMAHUAN,MOSHANGHUAKAI,HUANHUANERGUI。NEISHIYIZHONGBEIDONGDEFUCONG。ERJINWUHUSIHAI、CHAOFAXIZHI,YIRANNENGGOUNAOZHONGQUJING、YOUWEIQINGHUAN。ZHEISHIYIZHONGZHUDONGXUANZEDEJINGJIE。MOTINGCHUANLINDAYESHENG,HEFANGYINXIAOQIEXUXING。
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